Monday, June 28, 2010

Here it is!!

My sketchbook arrived today and what a dinky little thing it is :) Less frightening than I expected.
My feet are for size reference, plus elevating due to tendonitis :(

I wanted to write down as much as I can abut my process and thinking for this project. So here I go, if I bore you shout up!!!

Q.What do I want out of doing this project?
A. I want to try to sort out in my head what my work is a about? I want to find my voice/my subject/my style and know what I am about. I want to be like all those people who have found something they adore, so much so no matter your feeling on the subject you can't help but admire their passion for it,when I grow up (Ps running out of time at 34)

Q. what are my thoughts on the subject - Below the surface
A. Initially I wanted to do something on self esteem, self image - thinking of how we all hide behind a mask, wanted to look at insecurity and make up to camouflage what's beneath. However is this the way I want my work to go? Is this something that will be my body of work? Simple answer - NO. I hate drawing people and am not good at it. I am not a conceptual artist is something I have to realise.
So then I had to think about what i am about, well I think I am about Pattern and I think I am about colour. So now I have to re think. I want something I can study as a starting point, I want something to be below what ever that is and so I started to think about what was in my local museums and area. I thought about Welshness and thought of love spoons and their hidden messages. and thought that this is far too commercialised and sappy a theme but liked the idea of the messages - messages from the past, that some of us understand but mainly walk past and don't get - now I am on to something. So off I virtually toddled to the Welsh national museum site to check out this sort of archaeological thing, thinking abut cup and ring marks to start, but got side tracked by standing stones and medieval inscribed stones and stone sculptures (ps I will do the for real visit to the museum when holidays commence). So I am there I have patternation and a blank canvas for colour and find out that we have a collection of standing stones in Margam which is very near by, so a family outing will ensue as there is a great park next to it :) pray for the rain to clear up for the weekend :)

Now did I ramble too much? Do I make sense? Is it worth writing this nonsense down? Sorry for poor grammar and punctuation :)


Karyn said...

No rambling is good! I love where your going with this :) I'm not very good at writing down my though processes hence my blog has short posts, lol :)

Judy Scott said...

this is awesome Carol - they are tiny aren't they! Hope your ankle is better soon. I know what you mean about finding 'your' thing and by the way you're just a baby still wait till you're my age and still searching :)

I love how you asked yourself questions and then given your answer working through the process - the personal project is probably one you could still do for yourself but I think I agree with you that you are about pattern and colour and I love the idea of looking at mark making and the standing stones - you could do rubbings and then repeat them over and over to get a pattern, then do rubbings with oil pastels, copy them all in stitch, crayons, water colour, collage - imagine the designs - I'm getting carried away now and rambling - enjoy the process and cant wait to see your photos - loads of love - Judy xxx

Sue said...

I believe that you are grown up when you realise you never will be!

Julie said...

No you're not rambling. I think you have the right idea to ask yourself questions and discuss the answers. Judy has said it all and she's got some great ideas too. Sounds like you have a plan so have fun! I'll catch up when mine gets here, Christmas probably knowing the post locally!

Val said...

Hi Carol - Very interesting to read your Q & As, particularly important for you to right them down. Now you are gorgeous and slim, you can enjoy it, and I'm sure you will be a knockout at the Prom. You need to start believing in yourself you know, and kick out all those negative thoughts - just turn them into positive ones. I can't, becomes I will try - and enjoy it! Why is it that 'beneath the surface' means self esteem, self image and hiding behind a mask. Why is it so important to find you voice/subject/style etc. It will come with experience/age, don't keep constantly bashing yourself cos you haven't found it!
Your Welshness sounds a brilliant jumping off point for study, and the way your brain jumped from one thing to another was wonderful.
Don't forget, whatever you do/study/create, you are doing it for you - not to impress anyone else, or be like anyone else. If you enjoy what you do, you can't ask for more! You'll find inspiration all around you, just relax, enjoy it and go for it girl -

Laura Pallatin said...

I love how you shared your process regarding your journaling. At 44 I'm enjoying many art forms and still allow myself to branch out a bit, too. I think its fun that we can be ever evolving.

BTW, I love the show "Gavin & Stacey" you're writing kinda reminds me of that. :)

-Laura P.